I am fighting desperate feeling of anxiety , I know that my son and I are so much better without my…
I am fighting desperate feeling of anxiety , I know that my son and I are so much better without my ex in the picture, I just can't get him out of my mind, I feel extremely nervous and scared. With every day that passes this pregnancy is getting the best of me. I feel so vulnerable and alone. The hurt and betrayal is still very much alive and him not caring at all to reach out at all to check if we're ok , hungry, or need anything.... Knowing he chose a woman over us and is spending all his time and money on her .... I shouldn't even care right? But it hurts. Knowing he was so narcissistic and abusive blaming me for anything and everything that would go wrong, just to find out he was living a double life and taking it out on me and our baby. My emotions are all over the place and I desperately want not to give a shit about him anymore sine we aren't important to him either 😥😤😣
Domanisha·
Мама двоих (5 лет, 9 лет), ждёт третьего
I went through the same thing with my daughters dad 9 years ago. We were highschool sweethearts and he got involved with an older woman when my daughter was 3 and had a baby with her. The hurt and betrayal is sooo overwhelming. I was miserable and pissed off. He didn't call unless the other woman made him...he didn't buy anything unless the other woman made him...here we are almost ten years later. I'm married to an awesome man and extremely happy!!! I have everything I prayed for and more and now he's wishing he had me...even called me the morning of my wedding last year telling me how much he loves me and messes up...its his loss. I want you to know no matter how tough it is now there is a rainbow at the end of this storm and you WILL come out on top. If you ever need to talk feel free to message me. Trust me I know the hurt...You dont have to go through it alone. I will be praying for you and your child...I will even pray for the father that he gets it act together! :)
septson·
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@cameryn_cameronsmom2016, thank you so much for your words, prayers are definitely needed and appreciated; although I do believe that he is beyond any prayers Lord knows I've prayed for him more than for myself. I do need support and friendship. thank you for extending your hand. I have to be honest and say I don't think I'll have my own happy ending I've always dreamed of... in form of a marriage and picture perfect family.... but I have to learn to accept that my little man and I will be the enough if not all the family I will ever need .... with God's love!
Domanisha·
Мама двоих (5 лет, 9 лет), ждёт третьего
Your welcome! I didn't think I would get my happy ending either. It wasn't until I put my focus solely on myself and my daughter's well being...focused on my relationship with God...He sent the unexpected...at the perfect time. I had let go of all the baggage from previous relationships, baby daddy issues and my husband found me. No one is too deep in their mess that prayer can't change them. It may not happen when we want it to but it will happen. I believe you will be an awesome mother and a great man will come and sweep you off your feet. I had to be content with myself, love and adore myself. Yours is coming....just believe!
septson·
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From your mouth to God's ears.... I say Amen! I know it has to start with a good point you made.... I have to learn to love myself. This male broke me down into a million pieces, it will take time to put myself back together for my son. Right now it's really hard... beyond anything I've ever thought I'd go through.... and trust me I've been through so much! I will have to work so hard to get passed my self esteem issues, my self image issues, myself worth....I'll just have to work on myself all around! some days are so much harder and darker than others.
septson·
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@cameryn_cameronsmom2016,
Domanisha·
Мама двоих (5 лет, 9 лет), ждёт третьего
That's to be expected but after all of the hardship and struggle you will be so much more stronger. One day at a time was literally what I had to do. I had to give myself the opportunity to feel everything...be it anger, depression, hate etc..I didnt sugarcoat anything. I didn't want to...I wanted to feel it all so next time I wouldn't allow anyone to get me to that point. Don't rush the process...take all the time you need. I'm here for you!
Dawn Weiss Craig Green·
Мама троих детей
I am in your shoes