Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Woke up made myself pancakes took 4 bites and had to run to the bathroom to throw it up :( I really really wanted those pancakes 😔

Due date

How likely are you to actually give birth on your due date, especially with your first kid? I don't want him to come on his exact due date because I don't want him to share a birthday with a certain someone.

So I went for another growth sono today and well baby is already measuring 7lbs..they say less than 10% of babies are bigger than him which is starting to make me nervous. I still have 5 weeks left and I really don't want him to keep growing at this rate I don't want him to get stuck . I'm sure everything will be fine but I'm just really emotional over this....any moms have big babies vaginally with no issues?

Will your Mom be in the delivery room?

My mom made it sound like she was gonna be in the delivery room when I give birth, and quite frankly, I would just like it to be me and my fiancé. It's our first, and I want to share that special moment with just him. I don't want to hurt her feelings, and I know this is something she would really like to be a part of. So I feel bad telling her no.