I'm sad,stressed,depressed,and just feel like crying and pouting tonight,me and my bf have a great…

I'm sad,stressed,depressed,and just feel like crying and pouting tonight,me and my bf have a great realtionship but idky I can't open up and tell him what's on my mind I'm afraid to cry in front of him so I just end up texting him everything when he's not home,I'm just stressed with how my life is going atm I feel like such failure of a parent... just so much going through my head....