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honestly i was the same way with my first. i was 17 and just wanted to live my life, i cried for like a week when i fist found out. i considered abortion but i could never do it. but a little later in my pregnancy i finally started feeling be move and it made me happy. After i had her i was in love with her, she is my little girl my mini me lol

just don't give up things may seem bad but it will get better (:

@paige1354, thanks girl. I'm 25, I feel like I should want more permanent things in my life. I've always wanted kids, but me and my man have been down this horrible rocky path and I think that has a lot to do with it. Also, I lost my mother at 15 so that's still a struggle in itself. I have everything ready for him, I've made a home for him, and I can't wait to meet him. I'm just so afraid I'm not going to have that love at first sight thing because I didn't want this to begin with. It wasn't in my plan and that makes me feel horrible.

nooooo, you are definitely not alone. Don't feel guilty of having emotions period. They are just that, emotions. You're scared and its okay to be scared. It's awesome you can share that because most people don't have the guts to and bottle it inside because they don't want to feel judged or are too concerned about what other people will think. I will have my baby any day now and i have a hard time bonding with my baby because of so many reasons. I tell everyone I didn't find out the sex of my baby because of such and such but the real reason is because I'm terrified to know but I know that fear will melt when I meet my baby. I love my child too but I definitely understand what you're going thru. know that I'm here to talk if you need it. it helps to talk your fears out

my depression can make me feel like u. but i also know that meds work for me. and if it got to the point of not loving my baby i would stop breast feeding to take care of my health. because depression is a sickness that we need to stay on top of. out of many illnesses ive had in my life. depression has caused me to suffer the most. i pray that ull find peace and that happiness fills ur heart when u recieve ur baby. be patient with yourself ur not a bad mom or nething like that. somebof us have to work at it...but it doesnt make us any less good as mom.

yeah i know how it is. I'm sorry for your loss. the whole rocky relationship prob is a big part of it. after my bd died it was rough.

my advice to you is do skin to skin right after birth and try breastfeeding it will help you build a bond with baby. it's a good thing you are ready and I'm sure you will be a wonderful mama (:

Dont be scared to love... I had my 1st born at 22 I didnt even know how to act & honestly it is an undescribeable feeling I never knew I could love a little person moreee than life itself ! mamahood is the purest love in lifee. p.s as I was typing this my 1st born now 4 yrs old came up to me randomly & said "i love you mama" & gave me a big ol kisss & hug. truelly they are the most loving little souls ! they love their mamas unconditionally & with one hug & kiss from mama you make it aall better💗 youll be fine love.

@ce5ce, thank you love. I'm only able to let those emotions out because I am on my way to becoming a mental health counselor. it has taken years and a lot of practice. there's so many times I want to scream when I dont. we all have our skeletons and flaws and I'm fully equipped to deal with them. I've been managing my depression pretty fairly, it's just these hormones and the unexpected got me all screwed up here and feeling terrible. thank you for the advice. I hope you have great joy when you meet your little one.

@yummycake, I agreed 100%. depression is not easy and it is an illness. thank you for your kind words. I'm praying that his presence will fill me with great joy and happiness. I do know that I will need to get back on meds and you can still breastfeed when your on certain ones, so that's a relief.

@paige1354, I'm so sorry for your loss. I will definitely be trying both of those. thank you for your words. I hope I can be half the momma my mother was to me!

I know that relationships take a big toll on you, specially when it's rocky and it causes u to feel certain ways. I had many hesitations in the beginning too because of my relationship. . I hadn't felt excited about my son's arrival until I literally felt the outline of his foot a few weeks ago.. the realization that I've created another human being inside me just left me in awe..

our relationship has improved so much since then, we had a lot of things to work on but we both finally admitted our faults, apologized and started to work on things.

My mother passed away when I was 13, it was a car accident.. my nephew and sister were in the truck with her, my sister was the only survivor, my depression started that very moment and although it's hard for waay too many reasons, I feel that this baby will give me the strength to do.things I hadn't.thought.possible. Because even now, everything my baby has is because of me. I don't have a lot of money and its been very difficult to get all the things he needs. But I've done it :) all by myself. My bf is the only one working so we don't have much money, I understand why he hasn't bought anything for the baby... I have taken care of things so now I feel somewhat accomplished and excited to meet him :) he's in need of nothing. I'm due July 4th

@mamateee, so sweet! thank you for the advice. I know that eventually all will be okay. I'm deathly afraid of the unknown and that's a huge factor. I hope that once I have him...my fears will dissappear.

@mssjudyk, I'm very sorry for your loss. I lost my mother due to cancer. my depression really didn't start then, I was in denial for a long time. repressed a lot of shit that I shouldn't have and it came back to bite me in the ass years later. So I understand. me and my man are engaged, but I don't feel as close as I used to with him cause he's lied to me and created a lot of mistrust. He lost his first baby a fee years ago due to the mothers mental health problems and she killed him. I think that was a whole other reason I couldn't abort because it would have broke him. Me and him have started to mend and he is really trying, but his past drug use really creates a divide in me. And I know I shouldn't hold that over his head but I do...I'm trying though, but that's why it's so rocky. I'm glad you guys were able to work through it. I hope I can rebuild too.

I know you can, I had to have a lot of patience and had.to learn to talk to him when I wasn't upset, so I had time to think about my responses... cuz when I'm mad I say dumb things lol. Its very hard to keep quiet and.let him speak without constantly wanting to.disagree with him. .. I've had to learn how to.listen with the.intent to understand him rather than with the intent.to respond...

I'm sorry for.your loss too<3

@mssjudyk, communicating is difficult. I think every couple has an issue with that at some point or another.