I am at such a loss. I really just don't know what to do. 😧😧😧 Yesterday we moved in with my parents…

I am at such a loss. I really just don't know what to do.

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Yesterday we moved in with my parents and family. Well I moved us while he was at work (not secretly he knew what was happening he just couldn't get off work to help) it's a 45 minute drive from where we were staying to my parents house. I got to my parents around 4pm. Celebrated father's day with my dad. Thought it was going well. Hubby got off work at 9. At 10 30 I messaged to be sure he was OK because he still wasn't here. I went to the store and picked up a few gifts for him for fathers day (we've been broke and not able to celebrate anything so I thought it might make him feel better) he didn't get to my parents until after 1am. And when he did he was super rude to me. So I left his gifts with him and went to bed. This morning I was hoping we would be better but apparently not, it's way worse. Every thing he says to me is mean. He's clearly mad.

I got him to talk to me a little but now I'm just mad too. He has never lived away from his parents or hometown. So he's uncomfortable which I understand. But he's mad were at my parents house. I don't know what he wants me to do. We had no where to stay. like literally no where. So my parents said we could stay with them until our house is ready. But he's all mad yelling how I chose to bring us here and ignored what he wants and is just being mean and rude about having to stay here but if u ask him what he thinks we should do instead he has no answer. He literally said it's my fault he's mad because I didn't find us somewhere to go that wasn't my parents.

I'm so hurt and mad. Why is this just my fault? How was I supposed to find us somewhere else to go in a strange city where I don't know anyone and I didn't even have a phone or Internet? I think it's selfish that he's this upset. I understand new areas are stressful but I just up and lived where he wanted for over a year. I didn't even have a phone to call my family and I never bitched at him once! Now he's yelling about how he would rather live in the car than here so I told him fine then get your ungrateful ass in the car and go!😠😠😠

I'm just so burnt out. I don't know what to do. He's my rock. And I'm a mess but he's going crazy and doesn't even notice that I'm falling apart. I just don't know what to do. How can he blame me for not having a solution when he doesn't either. I'm just struggling so hard. I feel like I'm just gonna snap.

oh and to make it all better because I've been so stressed it's causing me issues with wanting to use again 💉💉💉 and I'm not going to but it upsets me that my mind is even going there and now I feel like I have to deal with it all with no support