a year ago today around this exact same time I was told that I was losing my first baby at just shy…

a year ago today around this exact same time I was told that I was losing my first baby at just shy of 8 weeks...the worst pain ever until early the next morning when my body would reject the baby on its own and had to b rushed to the er for a dnc...the last year has been a roller coaster ride and the people that have been there have been great my boyfriend has been great but I miss my angel baby and think and wonder about the what ifs...my rainbow princess will b here in 39 days or less and I couldn't be happier but my heart hurts so bad today...I wonder if I would of had a girl or boy what they would look like or act like...all the what ifs rush through my head and even more so today...but god had a plan for me and my boyfriend...today my heart hurts and tomorrow it will hurt just as bad...just needed to vent and let something out if I held it in I would go crazy...