((((((((RANT))))))))
I have really bad anxiety!!! the house we live in doesn't have ac... so we use fans.. now the fan is broken in the living room.. the tank for the swear is backed up becuz the guy we live with (that owns the house) hasn't pumped it in 9 YEARS!! So we are limited to showers, flushing the toilet, and washing clothes... WTF!!! And then, we (hubby and I) have no car.. so I can't go get my anxiety meds.. the guy we live with is taking care of his dad in another town, he is the only ride we have to go anywhere. plus his car is a piece of shit.. I have to ride a bus to go to my ob appointment this coming Wednesday... don't know when I'll be home becuz.. it's a bus...
My hubby does work but he is paying child support. so half his checks are gone. I can't work because if I stand up to long my back hurts a lot because I'm pregnant. And then I won't be able to work after my daughter is born because hubby and the guy we live with both work nights and the only way I'll be able to work is if I work nights with them.. they work at the same place. And if I do that, no one will be able to watch my baby girl. so I'm going to be a stay at home mom. I just wish I could help my hubby out some how.. I feel worthless...
sometimes I break down and cry for at least an hr or two. I feel like I'm falling apart..
I moved up here to Ohio to be with my hubby in Dec 2014. I'm from Louisiana, so I have no family up here to help me get to places.. ugh.. sometimes I wish he would have just moved down to Louisiana to be with me.. but it is what it is.
And don't get me wrong I'm very excited about having a baby girl with my hubby! She is due October 4th!!