I most say I'm very hurt by my own mother:( she can't never keep her words and never really happy…

I most say I'm very hurt by my own mother:( she can't never keep her words and never really happy for me or about having a granddaughter it was all a fake. Now this month is almost over I have to find a way to throw a baby shower soon all by my self cuz my mom never wanted to do it and lie to me about it and wants to kick me out cuz I won't help out on food for everyone when I don't get much food stamps and they eat nothing but junk food an go can't eat that cuz of my diet I been on for 6 months how can a mother be so rude and mean and play faves with their own kids. She treats me like shit and does not understand that is treating me this way and when I bing it up she shut me down and says it all in your head Deanna you t pregnant. I haven't live with my mom for 2 years cuz of this and when I got pregnant and lost my job, everyone in my family haven't been nice at all. I'm so lose and hurt. I'm alone and scare. I don't know how I'm going to be a good mom, I don't know how I'm going to get the rest of the things for my baby when own family is no help but steal and be mean to me and it doesn't help when I'm already depress. I'm getting help but it's not working. I'm sorry I need to vent.