Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

I wish I could make the baby come faster.. I'm getting big and I want my baby here already and I want my body back so baddd 😫

I WANT MY BABY ! 😡 takes 40 weeks??? Seriously though!!! 😩😫 new date given so now I'm 36w2d

Ladies, I'm so freaking excited and happy right now that I am UGLY crying at work !! My doctor just called me because he got my blood results back, baby is good and I'm having A BOYYYY!!! I cant believe after all I've been through I finally get my boy !!! Thank you Jesus !!! I want to surprise Tim, any ideas of how I can surprise him for when he gets home from work tonight ??? Let's hear it.

#TEAMBLUE

I'm being induced. Baby has no heartbeat. I am numb and just want to die.