I've really struggled emotionally with this pregnancy, I had severe anxiety from day one, at first although we planned baby i conceived a lot quicker (first try) than I thought I would and felt an 'oh shit' moment and it took me a good month to come to terms with the fact I was actually pregnant. Then I became so anxious that at our first scan they were going to tell us our baby was dead to the point I'd actually convinced myself that was in fact what was going to happen, so when I did in fact see a beautiful live foetus swimming around I was brought to tears. Then I was fine for a few weeks. Then the anxiety started again. And I started experiencing pain which I convinced myself was miscarriage pain so we went to maternity and again all was fine and we had our scan the next week again all was fine. But the anxiety and depression in this pregnancy is exhausting I'm scared this baby will die, to the point I can't enjoy it. I'm afraid of bonding with bump incase of the worst.
Luckily I had a great team of support, my midwife is specially trained to deal with this and I am now with a perinatal team plus of course my fab hubby.
Is there anyone else out there with/or who have had feelings like this? I just feel so alone.