Lately I haven't been feeling good. So I started watching episodes of the vampire diaries on project free tv on my phone. It's a really great distraction from feeling terrible. After stopping for a little while and calling my mom while I still was on a high from having a tv show binge and then ending the conversation. I realized I hide my pain and not just my physical pain but my emotional pain by excluding myself from everyone and escaping reality by watching my favorite shows and feeling their pains and joy like I personally know them which I kinda do when I been watching the show from the beginning. Feeling their pain or their joys distracts me from my own pain. The pain I have tried to escape but haven't had success. I feel like it follows me everywhere I go.
- rant over well not really a rant over its sorta a emotional spill over-