I don't want to be with someone just to not be alone.... If I did it once with my ex husband and got…

I don't want to be with someone just to not be alone.... If I did it once with my ex husband and got up and left with 3 kids what makes him think I'm going to sit around and wait for a 32 year old like him to change and stick around? you lost your first family for a reason and you haven't learned your lesson? there's nothing more I can do... 4 years? took me long enough!