I know starting to get colostrum is totally normal. And I'm trying to be comfortable with it because…

I know starting to get colostrum is totally normal. And I'm trying to be comfortable with it because I plan on trying to strictly breastfeed and pump. and maybe it's just because this is my first pregnancy to get far enough to produce colostrum but I'm having a hard time. I leak alot. Like puddles on our bed alot. I have bought breast pads and so far none help. idk if I'm allergic to something in them or what but every brand I've tried just makes me horribly itchy. And it makes me feel bad to wake up in a puddle of colostrum. Idk. I know I need to get used to it. And hubby has been trying so hard to make me feel better about it which I appreciate. But I'm wondering did any other ladies struggle with this? I just don't want to feel like I'm unattractive every time I notice I'm leaking