-My last post I feel like venting. After listening to some church music and crying my eyes out just…

-My last post I feel like venting. After listening to some church music and crying my eyes out just trying to have God help thru everything I'm battling with. I feel so alone at times. I feel like my fiance family is against me and just want to make me feel worse then I am because I'm not working anymore and he can't work due to a back injury. I have to deal with them feeling like I co-sign woth everything his sisters bf says which I stay in my room 23 hours out of a day seriously. Besides to eat or if I cook. Usually in the room watching movies and bored. So now I'll just stay in the room 24 hours out the day so nobody feels some type of way. I had went thru somethings my senior year in high school and caused me to not recieve my diploma but still be able to walk across the stage. So now I'm battling with trying to pass these test so I can have a better life for my child and myself. A career and not just always working for somebody or being paid a certain wage. I don't know Gods plan and trust me I believe in God to the point its not even funny. What he showed me this year has made me believe even deeper in him. I know when my baby gets here I won't be to worried about everybody else because I know that little person will look up to me and love me and will never see any wrong in me.