do you ever feel yourself go completely 112% numb? you know you're not dead yet as you can still feel the child inside…

do you ever feel yourself go completely 112% numb? you know you're not dead yet as you can still feel the child inside of you toss and turn and you can see your dog violently scratch its ear. so what is it? it must be a state of complete shock. the feeling of your whole body wanting to shut down. the cheeks stained with tears and the saliva slowly drips from out of your mouth as you can no longer figure out how to swallow. the hairs on your arms slowly creep up due to the chill that now covers your body as if you've been wrapped up in winters blanket. is there anything to reshock you from this state back into the reality that your body is trying desperately to escape from? if there is a solution, I still have yet to find it. I still have yet to recognize the right answers. so here I lie and wait.