Not that anyone will be awake at 4 in the morning to read this but oh well. Being a grown up is…

Not that anyone will be awake at 4 in the morning to read this but oh well.

Being a grown up is hard. Having type one diabetes (the one controlled with insulin shots not diet and exercise) is also hard. But having this disease, and being pregnant is the hardest thing I've had to endure. My body hurts so bad and is trying so hard to quit on me. (think of steel magnolias ladies, that's me.) I've had numerous nights with no sleep due to throwing up blood, much like tonight. My body hurts so bad and I just want to give up. But I know if I give up, then I will lose my son. I'll go through all this pain, bruises, and scars if it means I am able to have one extra minute with him. I won't give up.

Its just so damned hard...