Hi everyone, So I am going to use this to just be completely honest about my whole journey…

Hi everyone,

So I am going to use this to just be completely honest about my whole journey relationship and pregnancy wise.

I found I was pregnant in late January. It was a very unexpected but welcomed surprise. I was 7weeks2days when I found out. I've been dating this guy who I thought was my dream guy since June 2014. And ladies I mean this guy is my dream guy. He's in law enforcement, tall, handsome, super muscular, and tattoos. He looks like a magic mike mother fucker. The amount of women that have asked him if he was a real cop or male stripper in his uniform is unreal. Lol but when I met him I was instantly in love. Sex was amazing.... He's very well endowed 😳☺️ and I was like okay he has to have a flaw somewhere... Eventually, eventually too late I found out that he is a huge player (shocker). He broke up with me once for an ex girlfriend which was the most hurtful thing to me... At least I wasn't pregnant then... Well their romance was very short lived, like a week lol. But me being so naive I took him back instantly. Things seemed to be going better and we were better than ever... So I thought. I went away for the weekend for naval reserve training. A week after I came back I found out he invited some girl over and fucked her in his bed, the bed I sleep next to him almost every night. I knew the girl was a girl he was seeing before he met me. Of course I broke up with him and me and the girl shortly became friends just coming up with all this dirt on him. Together we called him out on all his bullshit.... He was so debased I dumped him and he was caught that he pleaded and cried to me all the time which he basically told the other girl he was using her. Ouch. Not cool.

Well weeks later I found out that, yay! I was pregnant! I decided to get back with him because he wanted to make things work and he seemed so supportive.... So there we were making things work. He comes to every doctors appointment and seemed to be there for me 100%. Little did I know that while I was at work he was cheating on me with any girl he could (5 girls). I caught him by logging on to his social media accounts and his emails... I also made a fake pof of him and had some girl telling me (as him) how great the sex was. These girls were totally not his type (or anyone's for that matter). It seemed as if he was desperate and taking any fat slob he could sink his dick into... Well I hit him with all this evidence and I've never seen a grown man so broken in my life. It made me feel awful to see someone I loved so much in so much pain... I too was in a lot of pain that he could do that to me and our baby that I love incredibly too much. My heart felt shattered... I found myself crying all the time and just in such despair. I wish I could have just never found out about these girls... But where I was hurting I knew he was too. He's not the type to watch his family walk out of his life and be okay with it. He was my best friend so I have him a chance to tell me his side... And clearly that many girls is a psychological problem. He agreed he needed to see a therapist because he couldn't go on treating females like that anymore or for that matter me, the woman he loved more than anything, mother of his unborn child. So eventually after a few therapy sessions I talked to him about making things work, giving it another shot. I told him that this was the last time and next time he can say goodbye to his family and hello to one night stands and a cold lonely bed to crawl into. (Unless it's filled by some random one nighter). Things are hard but the change I've seen in him is unreal. Do I trust him? No. But he is trying so hard. I'm trying to forgive as well so that my beautiful baby can have two loving parents. I do truly love him and want to be with him. I just want to be with the changed loyal version of him.