I feel like I was robbed of the birthing experience I got the labor part (50 hrs of it) but then had…

I feel like I was robbed of the birthing experience I got the labor part (50 hrs of it) but then had to have a c section didn't get to see or hold my baby till 4-5 hrs later by then everyone else had already seen him it's not fair I carry and deliver him but am the last one to hold him 😪 maybe I'm just being super emotional I really wanted that experience of holding my baby directly after him being born