Vent: okay so my husband plays COD , which im totally cool with because i do too. But, ever since he joined a clan he okays ALL the time. Its as soon as he gets home, he gives me a kiss gets changed and immediately foes to that and all day on the weekends. Like hello asshole, im almost nine months pregnant- can you fucking clean and do laundry and feed the dogs and cook dinner and put your daughter to bed for a while!?!? I dont think its asking too much seeing as i do it ALL the time!
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

Well I. glad the lack of interest in me is because hes watching porn for the third time when he promised me three times he wouldnt. We have had 3 issues where it lead to him cheatinf before! Im glad I can be ugly. I didnt ask to be made fat and given stretch marks but damnit its our child and things happen.. Im still pretty right? am I?.. I didnt purposely try to look the way I do.. Im pregnant.. its how it works.. I thought I was still good enough. Do I still look okay?.. I keep shaking now..
I know this sounds sooo fkedup but sometimes i wanna get into a bad accident so my husband sees exactly all the things i do ... and how wrong he is by saying i don’t do enough ( not in those words but the jist of it ) anyway .... i think this all the time . Maybe then he will think differently .
Its almost 11. Put my son to bed at 9:20 and he has bee. Down here 5 times already i am about to loose it. And when he is upstairs i hear walking around and no one else isnup there but for my daughter who is sleeping. Im sooooo close. I havent had any time to myself at all. Im sore as hell and just want 30 minutes!! Butnnow im about to go to sleep and i just know its going be about 10 more times my son comes to me of some made up injury or how hes thirsty. I might not have any hair by tomorrow m...