so when I was 14 I started doing beauty pageants and I was placing in the top 10 in most of them but…

I had a boyfriend who for two years constantly put me down and I hated myself and then I met my current boyfriend n he brought my confidence way up. I'm now pregnant and some times I feel icky.. but he always makes me feel better .... I think you should talk to your sister and tell her how she is making you feel

thanks it really helps knowing that I'm not alone. and yea that's what my boyfriend said to cuz when he is around h and she says that he always says something to her and it makes me feel a little better but I talked to my mom about it earlier and she said she will also try to talk to her. thank you. @tinymommy

your welcome :) if you need someone to talk to you can talk to me if u want

thank you it really means a lot! @tinymommy

@brose18, I was in a beauty pageant when I was 13 & I got 2nd place out of 3 girls (me & 2 others). I got the chance to go to State but I changed my mind last minute because I was very insecure about the way I looked. At 15 I started dating a guy & he would always compare me to girls around me & told me he wished I looked more like my sister & then told me he wished I looked like Emma stone because he thought she was sexy. Then after 3 & 1/2 yrs of dating him & getting engaged I found out he cheated on me. Then after him I messed around with a guy who cheated on me & broke up with me date a week because I wouldn't have sex with him because we had just started dating. (Happened to be a guy who called me ugly a few years ago then I got puberty & he all of a sudden wanted a piece). After him I messed around with a 25yr old who had a 5yr old son and I was 17 at the time. I went to his house to just hang out we had never even kissed before & I spent the night at his house (bad decision on my part but I was trying to rebound & get over the hurt I had experienced) & I let him kiss me. Next thing I knew he was on top of me with his dick out trying to hae sex with me. He didn't force sex on me but what he did was not consensual either & I expressed that. After him I started dating my current bf an babies father. When we first got together he was fresh out of a break up so I heard a lot about his ex and all of the girls he had slept with. By the end of all of this I had no self esteem. There was also another incident in the middle of all this in which a guy I worke with convinced me he wanted to date me but wouldn't unless I had sex with him first because if my hooha wasn't tight enough then he wouldn't date me which sucked. Now after giving birth my self esteem is at an all time low. Idk how to get it back.

awww girl your beautiful. I know what your going through. I think we all go through this feeling throughout our pregnancy. I was engaged to a man for almost 5 years who constantly treated me like shit and who hit me. I was afraid of getting out of the relationship until I met my husband. he was my knight in shining armor and till this day I still call him that and all though I have my days when I don't think I look pretty enough for him I express my feelings to him And he reassures me I am the only girl who he wants to be with and how pretty I am. you gotta just look at how you got where you are now and look at what you have and it'll help you a lot

thank you @chhaya I really appreciate you telling your story to me. I always thought I was alone but I guess I'm really not at all.

thanks @courtney_boyea I never thought about looking at it that way. I'm glad I have you girla that I can talk to without being bashed. 💟

@brose18, you're welcome. I think you're gorgeous if it counts for anything lol hang in there girl

thanks you. and I'm trying. @chhaya