I can honestly say I have never been as stressed out as I have been these past couple weeks.. All…

why homeless? :( r u ok? i hope u find a job asap!

@mommy3rmz, Because my boyfriend said he doesn't want this relationship to be like his others where they relied on each other for survival.. He said he wants to get on his own two feet first and I need to do the same thing.. He said I get my own place and he will be there a lot and leave clothes there and stuff as if he is living there but he just won't be technically living there.. i mean I get his reasoning.. but it is a lot harder for me to try to do all this on my own as a single mother.. and say I do get a job.. I won't get approved for an apartment unless I make at least 1500 a month. But guess what, if you make over 1507 a month as a household of 2 DHS cuts off benefits. no food stamps. no daycare assistance. and that's gross income! not bring home jncome! :'( so you say about 1000 bring home money (Michigan taxes the living shit out of you!!!!!) so of a 1000 take out 600 for rent.. & then add in daycare (about 130 a week for full time care) where's your money for electric bill? gas? food? diapers? car insurance? I am going to be completely fucked and not be able to provide for my son! :'( I am stressed beyond what I can handle and if he would just go in on it with me... no problems! but he wants me to be an independent woman and hold my own.. I respect his wishes I do.. but holy fuck man. :'( I'm only 20! & raising a child alone with no child support and trying my hardest.. and it just isn't good enough. I don't have a rich mommy and daddy to co-sign on am apartment for me.. or give me money each month like my other "friends" do who claim to do everything on their own too. ugh! :'(

and he isn't ready to introduce me to his children eithet.. He said he doesn't ever want them to see him go from relationship to relationship.. and he wants to make sure we are going to last before he introduces me.. and I respect that decision too!! 100%!!!! but we have been together for a year and a half... and I still have to wait...?? makes me feel like he may have doubts about us.. I mean yes we have been apart for 8 months and aren't re-united yet so I hope that is the issues and In a few months that will change.. but it's just another situation I get to over think and stress about. :'(

@mommy3rmz, & to add to it.. I asked my baby daddy before he went to jail (in January, he gets out in a week) if he could send me some money to help me out with diapers and wipes and stuff.. He said he wouldn't until I moved back and we had sex, he said he would throw me whatever my rent is each month.. and as long as i domt talk to or fuck with any other person.. and i hold a good image as his baby momma...and he said he doesn't want to feel like he is throwing his money away without getting some personal benefit, sex.. I guess feeling like you helped feed and clothe and house your child isn't a good enough benefit for him. :'( smfh I'm not going to hoe myself out to him just so I can out food on the table. wtf I look like a prostitute?! yeah he's finnee as hell but a shitty ass mf with a terrible attitude and a even worse temper! NO! I have much more respect for myself than that! &going; after him for child support won't make any difference!! He's a hustler! A thug, a drug dealer and dog fighting mother fucker.. that's how he makes his damn money!! :'( he doesn't pay taxes.. The state won't charge him anything because for all they know he is unemployed! :'( I am so stressed out I don't know what to think or do. my hair is falling out and I'm breaking out and starving myself I'm so stressed out.

omg girl im sorry u have to go thru this :( breaks my heart that you and ur child have to do all this with no help but ima be honest why is ur bf trying to make u independent why cant he just move in with u and then u can start a job and all that why does he want to be seperate if he loves u he has to understand you cant do it all by urself and what if u stay in CO and u get a job would it be easier for u ? and girl the children part is understandable buy if he is gunna want somthing serious then he best start introducing you because you will be in their lifes if he decides to make it official and serious but then again maybe his babymama dont want u to meet them and thats a hard situation :/ as for ur babydaddy he is a fuckn asshole i think its bess u forget him and know your on ur own love hes just taking advantage of u and the fact that you have a child i would try to figure out if u could put childsupport maybe show some evidence of what you know about him hustleing and see if the gov can do somthing about it because thats not fair that is his child too not only yours but girl try to relax i know it sounds horrible but its not good nor for u nor babyboy god knows what his plans are for you maybe being a single mom is your call or maybe ur bf will react and help you out im not sure but for now try to figure out other ways to make it work for you and baby maybe family memver can babysit or maybe ur parents can help while you save up some money for you to be able to move away

@mommy3rmz, you are by far my favorite preggie user! (: you always know what to say to help me cheer up!! AMAZING NEWS!! Idk if you seen my most recent post but I got a call back on a job I applied for at 3am this morning!! (: have an interview set up for the first week i am back!! I needed that!! I am so relieved I feel like I can breathe now!! omg. but yeah I know it's crap... but my bf's past relationships have been them depending on him to pay bills or it was eviction and visa versa and he doesn't want to see me get in that predicament and ruin my rent history or credit or anything because I got in over my head on a lease I couldn't afford without help.. at the same time I wish I knew that he didn't have doubts about us working out.. but he is a very closed person.. He has been opening up to me a lot more and more lately but it took him a year to tell me he loves me because he didn't want me to break his heart if he said it when he actually felt it a few months into us talking.. He told me he wants to marry me someday and be with me til death do us part.. I have faith in our relationship. it's just going to take some time. and yeah his baby mommas... omg that's another story! imagine your husband's ex (if they have kids together lol) calling him at all hours of the day making up stuff about one of their girls being sick or this and that just so he will come over so she can see him.. she tells him she loves him and shit. and he has that "I DONT FUCK WIT YOUUU!" (lol the song) attitude to her like foreal back the fuck up!! so I have a feeling I will be dealing with her in the future.. but yeah I was thinking of taking screen shots of his Facebook posts where he's bragging about how much money he's got coming in and those pics of him laying in a couple thousand dollars in 50's & 100 dollar bills.. yeah.. He got that much money he can afford to pay for some of his sons stuff. but then again... I don't really want him to have any leverage of seeing him.. If he pays me then I will feel I have to let him see him.. If he doesn't then fuck off. so idk.. hopefully this job works out or the rest of them call me too!! planning on putting out more applications today & the rest of the time I'm here. lol I gotta make this happen for my son and I! I gotta be a strong mommy and a superhero to my little dude. (:

aww lol well thanks hun i try to be that one friend who listens n give the best advice i can :) and yess!!! i saw that how exciting that will deff take some weight off ur shoulders and let u breath some specially in the financial situation 💰 and well at least hes looking out for you and telling you how life really is because nobody should chocolate cover life its hard out there with bills and kids and ugh the struggle i know how it feels to be so pressured about money or bills that u cant pay because u cnt make enough so at least hes giving u a headsup :) and geez!! ima be that baby mama watch haha jk 😂 i hate when girls r like that like leave them alone for some reason it didnt worj out n sure as hell it wont get any better if u are up on him all the time haha and yes u gotta be strong and make it happen for u and your little one because now its about u 2 and im sure god wont leave u alone hes always there we just gotta have patience and faith that everything will turn out ok :) i will deff be praying for you and keep u in my thoughts so it all works out perfectly !! as for ur babydaddy girl i think its best to let his ass go because nobody got time for THAT😏 lol