I hate when I get irritated because it just makes me wanna cry. Then ppl look at me like im crazy…

I hate when I get irritated because it just makes me wanna cry. Then ppl look at me like im crazy for being emotional. No you're annoying af and I want you out of my presence. I NEED A SHOT. Im not gonna make it through the day without going iff on somebody.. And this whole no cursing thing is making it that much harder. Deat God please give me strength and patience because I'm reaching my boiling point.