okay ladies ... I have a rant ... So my boyfriend leaves in a few hours to Arizona for about 2.5-3…

okay ladies ... I have a rant ... So my boyfriend leaves in a few hours to Arizona for about 2.5-3 weeks & the whole thing just frustrates me. He's going to go and spend time with some family down there, which I understand but what I don't understand is that why would he leave so late in the pregnancy . I will be 32 weeks on Wednesday ... anything could happen. This is our first pregnancy and everything worries me. I know I shouldn't be thinking about all the negatives but there aren't any positives to this situation. I know that him & I aren't married, but he has his own family now. He can't just up & leave ... I mean I've know about this trip for a month but I couldn't do anything about it . The tickets are nonrefundable ... Our baby shower is on January 18th & he's suppose to be back around the 5th ... MAYBE .. because they bought one way tickets instead of round trip so who really knows when he's coming ... I'm doing all of the planning by myself while he's out . On top of that, he's barely spend time with me the past week and a half because he's been working so much and hanging out with friends ... I cried just this past Thursday because he had to go to Oregon for a job and I didn't get to see him till Saturday night ... This whole things isn't only frustrating but its hurts ... since I've been pregnant I've relied on him so much to be here for me physically because I can't stand being alone ... he knows that and yet he still chooses to go. Original plans was for him to leave in the summer while we still had time to prepare for baby .... we are weeks away from our son being born & I will never forgive him if he missed out on the birth of our child ....