Having a baby & it being in the nicu is so hard. his sister's have only seen pictures. I hope is blood work comes back…

Having a baby & it being in the nicu is so hard. his sister's have only seen pictures. I hope is blood work comes back that he's ok & doesn't have an infection then Hopefully he will come to my room. I wanna be able to look at him, hold him & feed him every time. I've been pumping my breasts,nothing has came out so I let them bottle feed him some formula, so he could get iv of fluids turned off & so he is getting fed. this is one of hardest things ever.