Okay I just need to get this out... I have had so much stress lately. Not only do I have anxiety and depression I…

Okay I just need to get this out... I have had so much stress lately. Not only do I have anxiety and depression I haven't smoked pot since I found out I was pregnant and my anxiety and depression has tripled with the hormones! My boyfriends anxiety is so severe he can't work and I don't go out often partly cause my friends live in the town over and partly because everytime we are apart he gets scared I'm not coming back... He has learning disabilities and a developmental disorder. He seems normal when you meet him but he's more socially awkward and can't read or spell well despite my help. And on top of all of this we essentially have 4 families between us and on his side is quite of bit of drug use and his dad was in the mental institution and his mom in a woman's safe house. My sister told me recently she was raped and finds it hard sometimes because she lost a baby after that experience which broke her heart. We live in a party apartment building and have to move when our lease is up January 1st which incidentally is 12 days before my due date. So not being able to set things up is a huge stress. And then add on that I'm pregnant for the first time and 19. I spend way too much time feeling nothing and crying. Wishing I could just fade into the background with my growing son and never see anyone again. And honestly this is barely over half what is happening in my life. Overwhelmed is a drastic understatement of how I feel. The only reason I am still here trying is because every kick makes me feel better and every hug and cuddle makes my head a little clearer and my heart less heavy. 😕