i wld really just rather give up and i hate that i feel this way i havent been this depressed or…

i wld really just rather give up and i hate that i feel this way i havent been this depressed or hated myself this much in years . its sad that my own mom has mad me feel this way. im completly against he still living with me after the first of the month and i dont want her at the hospital when i have the baby and i dont want her around the baby because of her actions over the past 5 months. i keep getting told its my decision but everytime i bring up her leaving at the first of the month everyone comes up with an excuse for her not to so its obviously not my decision and no one seems to understand why i dont want to be here if shes here and i cant leave bc it Will break me and my hubby up bc he says i shldnt have to leave bc of her. but if i shldnt have to leave bc of her then why wont ppl just do it my way and make her leave in a couple days like Weve planned on instead of waiting till the last minute and coming up with excuses for her to stay.

Uhggg sorry needed to vent before insanity took over