Because yesterday was Eid and my oldest daughter said that she was embarrassed by me and that I should be embarrassed by myself because I have a little weakness on my left side of the body the things that I shouldn't have said came out terribly and I couldn't sleep last night because I was up thinking about him letting me and the girls go after 8 years of marriage but I know I was worng to say it... I didn't get the closure that I know that I definitely need to end this chapter