Spent yesterday crying on and off just thinking about her being away. Mind keeps on racing thinking about all the things that could go wrong. I feel like i want to cancel but i was the one who suggested liuwa being babysat and dont want to dissapoint her grandad as he was looking forward to today. Might just leave her for one hour instead. Feels like im ripping out my heart and handing it to someone else to look after xxx

@kahh1997 no, he was with his nan (my mam) and honestly he didnt want to come home with me the next day 😅 he will stay at Nanny's at any opportunity now! I have siblings who are a fair bit younger than me so he loves spending time with them! Xx

I must be the only one who’s never left their kids with anyone 😂😂

@theodoresmammy @bonnieb yous two must have been stir crazy after a year and no break! I trust peters dad with her but just got the fear incase anything happens and im not there. How did your little ones cope like did they cry or throw a fit when you left? Xxx

My first was left the week after his first birthday. Its something I wish I had done much sooner. But I left him with someone I trusted, someone I knew would call me if he needed me. I did just want to go and pick him back up again as soon as I dropped him off! Just try to enjoy being able to do something without a little human stuck to you :)

No one has had my second yet, the opportunity hasn't come around due to covid. But she is still EBF so I dont think she would be ok without me for even a few hours yet 🤔 xx