Update on my personal life. I’ve seen a couple ladies ask about me and even message me.

After a separation of 3 months I decided to give my husband another chance after he cheated. Well here we are a year later and once again I went through his phone and found a video he was having a 3 some this was on the 8th I told him I was done and I’m getting a divorce, I said really you did this again after YOU FKEN begged for another chance. He stayed away for 4 days “in shame” he’s stayed home for last 2 days but I wouldn’t talk to him until yesterday when he signed a lease for a house I told him to get because I’m done. He cried and said he can’t believe this, I told him no I can’t believe you’re doing this bullshit to me again. Well he didn’t come home which bothered me but I’m done, well out of curiosity I looked at his phone he has pictures with a girl he met after the threesome or so I think. Text messages saying come over to my room while he was gone. I can’t believe this shit but then I can. I’m so hurt, like why? Why ask for a chance only to fk it up again. I am so sad, hurt and mad. I get it’s my fault for allowing him back but all I wanted to do was give my family a chance again, save my family. I’m hurt I can’t even cry I have all this pressure built up I my chest and can’t cry... how do I release it ? I asked him why he said we have to
Move on you said we were done after I did the 3 some I said you can’t grieve me you can be sorry he said I don’t want to feel it and your going to move on too I said no a day wtf is wrong with you. As I said before I know some of you will say it’s my fault but I was holding on and give someone a chance. I was trying to be a good mother and person.