Hey everyone. I know I posted some crazy bad news not long ago. I decided to stay with my husband. He actually chose me over his addiction and today he is 20 days clean!!! He snapped out of it long enough to see how distant I was and he said that it scared him. So he ran all the gas out of his truck and parked it, gave me his last few dollars, and broke his phone. He gave me a letter and told me no matter what he said or done not to give in and help him get anything. He crawled in the bed and that was where he stayed for over a week. He literally just stopped cold turkey. He suffered with some serious pain and withdrawal symptoms that week. Then the symptoms started to go away. He is starting to be back to his real self and has been working hard and being the husband that I fell in love with. Hes still a little aggitated which is normal. He is trying to cope with this bs life sober for once. Lol i'm like "Welcome to the real world honey!" He is still recovering of course but this is definitely a big first for him. I honestly thought my husband was gone. I didn't think he would turn around the way that he has! And i never would have thought I could ever move foward after all the things he done to me. But i have to keep reminding myself that, that wasn't him! If any mommas are going through something like this don't loose hope. You don't have to physically leave. What I did was just distant my self. Mentally and emotionally. I knew that there was nothing I could do. He had to want it hisself. I just watched and monitored so he could get help if he needed it. It was a painful thing to watch and it took alot of strength and alot of my sanity. But it kept him alive and gave him the chance to be him again! I am so glad that God brought him back to me! I am glad that God helped pull him out of the fog and gave him the strength and motivation to excape addiction. Pray my husband stays strong please addiction is known to be a life long fight. I don't want to loose him again. (This picture was the other day. He looks 100% better already and has gained all of his weight back!)