I have stood by my husband soo much. I stayed at times when ik it was best for me to go. I killed myself to try and save him from his addictions. I suffered 2 miscarriages and 6 years of infirtility bc of his addictions and still stayed! And all I in get in return is this shattered heart and bad a mind that will never rest. He been cheating on me wit our 43 year old neighbor giving her drugs for "sexual acts." Like my self esteem or life needed this crazy shit. I'll never understand.