Well i think i made ryder mad. 😶 he is getting annoyed with our puppy. Says he is too wild. And that there is nothing positive coming from havung him. I told him that he helps me with my loneliness and depression. He got upset thinking I'm saying he doesn't pay attention to me. Which wasn't what i was saying at all. I mean i am lonely because of him but most of it is him working so much overtime he either sleeps or works. But also its like he is disgusted by me. He is terrified to do anything thinking oliver will get hurt and thinks its weird to do anything while I'm this big and pregnant. I feel disgusting and he doesn't make me feel any better. He is so good to me but its the fact that he won't even touch me other than the few hugs and pop kisses here and there. I'm trying to be as understanding as possible. I get he is tired because he works constantly. I show my love and affection for him. And I try to show him i appreciate everything he does. But damn i need some love too.