You guys I never make posts, but I'm not sure who to talk to. My sons dad and I broke up when I was 2 months pregnant with baby #2 - since the split he's only given me $800 for my son on the last six months. I moved back in with my parents but I had quit my job and became a stay at home mom when I had my first so I literally had no source of income. We were giving my son enfamil enspire ($40 a can) but I could no longer afford it and switched back to regular enfamil. He had a fit and got upset even though he was not buying him milk. Long story short we will make arrangements for him to see the baby and he will cancel last minute or not show up. This has happened multiple times. He also has denied the baby on the way even though we were in a 7 year relationship. I'm due in roughly 45 days so a month and some change.
I'm not sure what to do it hurts me that he doesn't put any effort into seeing the baby and completely ignores the one on the way. Not for me but for me kids. He seemed to really love the baby when we were living together and At that point I had no complains as a father about him. But idk what changed. I feel like giving up but then I worry my kids will feel hurt in the future. I've been given the opportunity to relocate out of state and part of me wants to go but the other part of me feels guilty like I'm taking away the kids from their father. Then I think but he's not even around. I guess what I'm saying is I'm torn for my boys future. I never wanted to be one of those moms who withholds the kids or asks for money in exchange for visitation but I feel like I'm fighting for them to be with him and he is not.
Just looking for advice. What would you do? My fear is that my boys will resent me when they get older for moving. But I feel so alone here. He is of no help. Has not seen the baby in over a week. And to be honest I'm scared of raising my boys alone. It's hard enough as is. They don't have another male role model to turn to.