I no longer feel like there's hope for me. I don't feel like I'm ever going to be happy again, I don't feel like my child is going to be happy and have a good life, I don't feel like I'm ever going to amount to anything, amd I definitely don't feel like I'm ever going to find love. I've tried to remain positive I've tried to be happy and I've tried forgetting all the hurt and my life literally gets worse by the day. I'm a prisoner in my own home and then told I'm a piece of shit for having depression and anxiety I don't want to die but I definitely don't enjoy living anymore either. I could never give up my little girl to anyone else but I also feel incredibly selfish for keeping her knowing how miserable and horrible life without a father is and how my depression will definitely affect her. Ive never felt like I hit rock bottom before but I do now, my family makes me feel so worthless and like a total piece of shit but then when I stand up for myself then I'm ridiculous and a bitch I just honestly do give up at this point.