I want to start working but I'm so nervous and I get such bad anxiety around people that I feel are testing me. I get hot and sweaty and feel pressured, like I might pass out. I don't know why, and some people in my family think I just don't want to work, but that's not the case. I really do want to work. I got pregnant when I was 16 and dropped out of high school. I'm 22 now and I haven't had to work because his dad always told me he didn't need me to work. To just be home with our son and start school again when our son starts school. So I've never had a job before. I just started adult school 6 months ago. And I feel like we are starting to be too low on money. But I feel like every time I think of applying somewhere I'll just fail when I'm being interviewed because of how anxious and awkward I'll get. I feel like such a failure and disappointment because I haven't started college yet and I'm just a stay at home mom. At least that's how certain people in my family have been making me feel. Lately my depression has been affecting me a little more and I feel like I barely have the energy to even want to get up and get me and my son ready for the day. I've been to therapy and have been given medication, but it doesn't help me.. I have no clue how to get over how I'm feeling.

Sorry for the little rant, I feel like I have nobody to really share what's going on with me that I know.