My heart hurts so much tonight.... More than any other day this past few months. Some of you ladies know that my son's father and I split when Jake was just a month old. So we have not seen him since September and have hardly heard from him since then (Nothing to do with Jake). His dad stopped asking about him, asking to see him or even ask if he needed anything after Jake being only a week old. He does have two other kids with two different women and I have been keeping in touch with one of them. I really, really had my hopes up this weekend thinking that he would text or call me asking if he could see his son today for his first Christmas and nothing. His other babymama just told me he's gonna go see her tonight.... I'm literally in tears right now because it hurts me so damn much that he just abandoned him like that and I'm trying so hard to be strong but tonight I just broke down.