these are the nights where i sit outside and reminisce on what my life was before i became a mom. all the crazy things i would be doing around this time during the summer and i just imagine what i would be doing right now. its just so crazy i am a mom now and never realized what i was missing but in all honesty i know i would be doing stupid stuff instead of creating the wonderful memories i am now so i would never trade the lifestyle i have i love being a mom to much and love my little Ryu more than life itself and i guess thats what being a mother is all about