ughhh...im going through some crazy emotions tonight.... so I have been trying to move on since my ex left me for another female when I was 7 months pregnant.. I recently was talking to a guy but tonight..I pushed him away... I've been so hurt by my baby's father that I can't trust anyone or let anyone in.. I've been trying but I'm so scared of getting hurt again... the father of my baby has brought me to my lowest and has made me go crazy..but yet and still.. I just want him back.. I want us to be together again.. I want us to be a family.. smh.. I know I shouldn't.. but i can't stop thinking about him...am I freaking retarded???..smh..