I tried all the way through the pregnancy and he eventually blocked me. Told his family and they just ignored me. You actually nailed how I feel in one it actually brought me to tears reading it! Because I love him so much and am so proud of him, I just don't understand atall how he can want to miss out on something so precious and beautiful.. I look at him and he is the spit of his dad! But aw god! That must have really hurt you! Atleast you have your 2 beautiful kiddies and the support of their dad! But thank you so much @tuftyturtle x

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Yeah not having the dad around would be heartbreaking. I can't imagine it. When you look at your baby and you're so in love with it, you really struggle to understand how somebody couldn't be interested. I know this is completely different but when my son was born and again when he was 10 days old I reached out to my mum and sent her photos of him and she told me 'I'm not interested. don't contact me again" it's hard. you want to share you're gorgeous baby and they're amazing moments. have you reached out to the dad ( not that you should have to) it might just help you to feel like you've done everything you can (document your attempts ) and that way your son can never blame you and you will both know you've tried your hardest. otherwise, all I can say is, focus on small goals. an hour at a time. A morning at a time. A day at a time. try hard to enjoy your boy because they grow so quickly. try to focus on what you've both got and not what you haven't got 😪

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@tuftyturtle, thank you! Just his whole "dad" situation I think is playing a huge part😞 @bambi16 it's the worst feeling in the world!!! Xxx

Stay strong hun..I know the feeling. 4 weeks later and I get immobilising pain that stops me being able to look after my little girl. Makes me feel so weak like I can't look after her as well as I want too xx

being a happy, alert, confident mummy who loves him un conditionally is what he needs and if you need a rest for that to happen then that's what's best for him and that's what he needs. babies pick up on your stress and your emotions so take the evening or the night or whatever you need and re charge. If it's more than mummy life that's getting you down then try to push it aside and focus on one hour of the day at a time and just work to tiny goals. It will get better 😘

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