canaryv
Chelsea
I don't like to go thru my photo album on my phone, makes me sad 😟
I miss my nephew so much 😭
I hate having pictures of his funeral but my sister asked me to take them.. It doesn't seem real, they don't look like the baby I knew and loved. His funeral was the very first funeral I've ever been too and it was a weird experience. I felt at peace and numb to it all. I felt awkward as my sisters SIL screamed and cried as if she had just found out my nephew was in an accident. I didn't cry and I didn't scream. I just watched everything speed past me in a blur. I saw him come into this world and I saw him leave. It's a very hard experience and something I never want to go thru again. It's definitely made me scared to have this baby. If a perfectly healthy 4 month can die out of nowhere, I'm not so sure I want to have a baby. It's so scary and there's too many unknowns in the world but I guess that's why I cling to God so much. Without Him I wouldn't be here anymore, the pressures of my life would have gotten to me a long time ago. Sorry for being blah.. His birthday is coming up and I can't stop thinking about him.
I love you so much Jesse 💚
I miss my nephew so much 😭
I hate having pictures of his funeral but my sister asked me to take them.. It doesn't seem real, they don't look like the baby I knew and loved. His funeral was the very first funeral I've ever been too and it was a weird experience. I felt at peace and numb to it all. I felt awkward as my sisters SIL screamed and cried as if she had just found out my nephew was in an accident. I didn't cry and I didn't scream. I just watched everything speed past me in a blur. I saw him come into this world and I saw him leave. It's a very hard experience and something I never want to go thru again. It's definitely made me scared to have this baby. If a perfectly healthy 4 month can die out of nowhere, I'm not so sure I want to have a baby. It's so scary and there's too many unknowns in the world but I guess that's why I cling to God so much. Without Him I wouldn't be here anymore, the pressures of my life would have gotten to me a long time ago. Sorry for being blah.. His birthday is coming up and I can't stop thinking about him.
I love you so much Jesse 💚
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Thank you 💛@macruz
It was awful.. I had a mc in February and my nephew was born in April. He became my world, if he wasn't with his mom & dad he was with me! It was very rare not to see him at church with me; I kept him over night all the time. Not to say my sister didn't take care of him, I always asked to pick him up whenever she was working or wanted to go out with her bf on the weekends they both were off. Being with him like that made it so much harder to let him go. I know he's up in heaven with my Canary and his siblings but it doesn't make it easier. I miss him a lot. @expectingfirstrainbow
I'm so sorry for your loss! @canaryv
Thank you 💛@maxs_mommy80
@squishy3, thank you 💛 it's gotten better but his birthday is next week and I'm all in my feelings 😕
I can't imagine how tough that was 😢 I had a miscarriage last year and was devastated and very scared in the beginning when I found out I was pregnant again but I also cling to God & know that He is in control of everything praying for you as his anniversary comes up ❤️🙏🏼
Im so sorry for your loss hun. RIP little angel👼🏼
Life is so hard... I'm so sorry to you and the rest of your family..it's something you never really get over..:(