I haven't been able to hold my son at all. I wasn't even the first person to see him. I had to wait 24hrs before I could get out the bed to even see him. While my family and his took trips to see him. The first day the tell me I can hold him was today so I text my "fiancé" they'll let me hold him tonight he says okay. I go see my son twice a day once during the day and once at night with his dad. So thinking we going tonight I'll hold him then. Nope he decides once we get there that he doesn't want to spend an hour for that....., he has work in the am let me give you some background he works at 8am but doesn't go to sleep until 2/3 am by choice. So needless to say I'm beyond disappointed and upset. This not driving is the worse I'm bout ready just to get in my car and drive myself....feeling empty let down not feeling the love