I'm also a FTM and have the same fear. Only my fear has lead to severe anxiety attacks and bouts of depression, like when I think about labor and delivery or try and read about it I've thrown up, blacked out, just crazy things happen. I've started talking to a psychiatrist but as of yet I still can't focus on thinking about delivery because I usually go into a panic attack. It's pretty embarrassing, I'm kind of ashamed that is how I react even to just thinking about it. I love reading about people's birth stories but when it gets down to the nitty gritty it's like my mind can't handle it! I'm workin on it lol

that's what I'm trying to keep in mind, women keep going back to have more!

just remember it can't be thaaaat bad or women like myself and probably just about every other mother you know wouldn't do it again and again lol

Also, your labor is about YOU. whatever you want is how it needs to go. Whoever you want needs to be there. Who you don't want, doesn't. Seriously. That was my biggest problem.

You honestly don't remember the pain one you see your baby. I swear it's the craziest thing. I thought it was bull when women told me that but it's 100% true.