Thank you for the kind words. It just breaks my heart.

You will get the strength you need when you need it. I know it's scary, I was a single mother for 7 years and it's very hard. But we do what we need to do for our kids happiness. and your boyfriend won't be gone forever right? Maybe he needs this time to clean himself up? you're really early in your pregnancy so at least that's a plus?? thankfully he's ok though! that's a blessing

I've been trying to relax. I think God sets me up for failure because I know I won't be able to handle this.

agree with @firefly . things happen for a reason and you will be okay. just leave it in Gods hands

just try to relax it may be for the best. God has a plan