You never realize how much pregnancy effects your body until after you deliver. I had such a hard pregnancy and my body just did not appreciate growing a human because I was so swollen and in pain towards the end. Today I went to put a clear coat of gel on my toes while Jaxon is sleeping and realized how good it felt to be able to do that and how nice it was to not be so swollen. Don't get me wrong I miss my bump, I miss carrying Jaxon...but not weeks 33 to 37 (when I had to deliever). Eventually I'll go for number tw, not sure when or with who...maybe I'll be with a different person by then...but I'll no what to expect next time around. I guess that's kind of reassuring. Too bad I'll be high risk and will have to go through a C-section again, boo.
Trigger. Lost baby
Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

I'll be so happy when my body pillow gets here 😩😩



There was once a time when I had a lot of time to myself lol
So I crocheted. I kinda miss it 🤷🏻♀️
How Old?
I got af again. ? I just realized that since I didn't get pregnant again this month I'll be another year older if I do end up pregnant and it sticks. I'll be 34 ?. How old would you be when you give birth if you are pregnant now??
How old are all my mama's? I'll be 35 on Friday the 16th 🤗